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In lieu of global economic crisis, here I am daydreaming about material things that I’m planning to have in the right place and right time… or it could be random. Anyway, I know I don’t have sufficient funds to buy the things that I’m thinking of at the moment, but hey, I could save. And if you must know, I spend a lot in buying foods and gadgets, though I’m not a very techie person.
We’re not rich and there’s no way that any of my sibling, nor parents, would give me money to spend, that’s why I’ve to find my own way to somehow get what I wanted. Right now I’m saving some moolahs for these stuff: (I think that I should keep a list so that it would keep me inspired and more motivated to work hard and save)
- Sennheiser headphones
- Canon EF 50mm f/1.8
- New perfume:
- Nike slippers
- New jeans
- New t-shirts
- New office attires
- Personal hygiene: Moisturizer, Lip Balm, Body Butter
- New undies
- First-gen ipod
- Laptop keyboard’s rubber thingy
- Laptop screen protector
- Laptop cleaner
So far, those that are the things that I think that want to have right now. I know it would cost me a lot, that’s why I need time to save. I will need lots and lots of photoshoots and hardwork for my OJT since I’m earning quite a lot in Emerson, I think that it would be best for me to fully-utilize my stay there.
Anyway, I just feel like blogging this. I’m not in the mood of saying much and constructing a more politically-right sentences. So there, pardon me if there’ll be some ugh-looking grammar. HAHA.
Later 
If there’s one thing that I don’t like about being a true-blooded filipino citizen is that I inherited, from my environment and/or culture, the most hated trait/act—Manana Habit. By nature, people will have the tendency to enjoy freedom, comfort, worry-free life—leaving the things that they need to do most importantly. I am guilty with this, and I am hating it. All my growing-up years, I’ve been trying hard to change. In confession, I have, perhaps, the worst self-disciplinary act, ever.
People change. But most of us are afraid to change because we are afraid to leave our comfort zone. We are afraid to take risk.
What if we think of responsibility? More often than not, we think of responsibility as a burden. That is, perhaps, because we are too lazy to feel tiresome. But in reality, we all have to face our own responsibilities because we are born to have lots of it. Responsibility is not a problem, it must be a flattering moment because for once in your life, somebody trusted you to do whatever it is that is due for you, right? I hate taking responsibilities, honestly. But hating it won’t help. We live in a world of action that if we not go with it, we’ll be left behind. Don’t we all want to progress? Why not take these responsibilities as stepping stone to ideal success?
As in responsibility, our school had been quarantined for 10 days because of A(H1N1) threat. It was supposedly the hell-week or the busiest week for Mapua students since most of their project deadlines are scheduled within that week. I should thank that we had a quarantine-break because I could have more time to work on my practicum study, spend time to work in my internship, and have more time working on my Applied project. But because of my being lazy, I’ve done nothing. I spent most of my free time sleeping, surfing over random websites, doing unproductive things—all of these I regret because of putting things aside. I know, doing these things won’t help, and consequentially, there’ll be no progress. No growth. What’s life for?
We all want a comfortable life, but I think that living it responsibly would help us ease things. After all, doing nothing in life is such a bore. We all have to face challenges. We should all choose to live life with passion, thrill… sense. We are all connected to each other that we can’t afford to be apathetic and leave responsibilities that instant. Soon enough, we will all have our sweet escape. Life is short, why not live it to the fullest?
I’m feeling lazy and I can’t find any motivation to do that. My mind-set right now is not about just doing what I have to do, but rather I need to do everything because these are pre-requisites. No matter how hard, time is running fast, I just need to get everyting done no matter what. Oh well.
I NEED MOTIVATION. AN INSPIRATION. I will have my life back. Soon enough.
Later. God bless
P.S. Monky is now back to normal. I will have to save for a new lens
You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don’t want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.
–from some random quote.
I got quite pissed the last time I updated this blog because of the long entry that didn’t appear or has been randomly error-posted. I don’t know how to explain it neither tell in details what happened since I don’t want to remember it anymore. Anyhow, here I am again trying to create and update an entry for this blog.
It’s been quite a while since I last updated this blog. Indeed, a lot of things happened to me these past few days. I must say that it has been a roller coaster ride for me, and things happen randomly and unplanned. My internship in Emerson has eaten much of my time that i haven’t got enough time for myself. It’s not that I’m exaggerating things but working and studying is a very hard thing to do, add to that the extra works that I’m yet to do which will due 3 weeks from now.
If you must know, I have been accepted in Emerson Electric Asia Ltd. as an intern that would do some IE works— Motion and Time Study/Capacity Management. It’s a good thing that the company gave us a project because I’ll be using the entire scope of it for my school thesis which I’m yet to make a proposal. My work for the company isn’t that tiring rather traveling from our office in Makati going to our workplace in Ortigas makes us really tired, considering the heat and traffic. But technically, I’ve got a wonderful job. It’s as if I’m an professional in my field but then everything that I do seems like a refreshing activity yet I still learn new things. And like what our boss always say, “We got the best and brilliant minds here.” So everything that he say that, I’ll be like “Wooo! Bola!”, but then he might be not fooling around since there are 5 of us in the group— 2 students from UP, 1 from DLSU, 1 from PUP, and me! Add to that our team leader which happen to be an alumnus of my school. Well anyway, it’s like we’re playing in the office yet we’re being payed and we’re cool. But then again, we have a goal and everything has a due date. Unfortunately, we are already late and I’m hoping that we could catch up with the set deadline. Our boss, who happened to be so HOT, would kill us all if we won’t do everything in the given 320 hours for our internship. But yeah, all in all, I love my job. I getting used to drinking coffee before and after meals. And I’m so loving coffee now. And I’m still not a morning person. Boo that! LOL.
On the other note, I’m not doing good in my Applied Industrial Engineering subject. It’s really a very hard subject. And did you know that that’s the only subject that I come to school for. Well, aside from my Practicum 1 subject, I enrolled this course, too. Meaning that academics-wise I’m not really in the momentum of doing good in both ends. I’m yet to do more of my school works rather than thinking of how to relieve stress, and stress is something that I shall embrace ’til further notice. Thank goodness for the chocolates because it really helps me feel good. And that’s scientifically proven. Anyway, changing habits isn’t too late. But I really need to have a due date for myself and that I should be realistic and more responsible, because if I wont, I’d be dead.
Self-centered wise, I’ve been drinking during the weekends and sneak drinking sessions with some random friends during the weekdays. But there are times where I just feel the need of going home and laying my back on my bed. But yeah, I sneak drinking sessions once in a while, and I must say that doing that really helps. And lately, I’ve met quite a lot of people/groups. But right now, I need to take a break in doing such because there’s really a lot of things for me to be responsive of, and that if I keep on doing what I do would lead into being doomed. But yeah, I’m fine with that. I don’t need social life right now since I’ve been pre-occupied by shitloads of school and office works. Oh yeah, my life is so urban right now!
I miss photography. I miss taking pictures. I miss my camera, my camera misses me, too. But I just can’t manage to have shoots right now since I’m getting ready being serious on focusing on my other life and goal—early graduation. I should hit the church soon. I haven’t heard sunday mass for some years now. Yes, you’ve read it right, for YEARS. And my conscience is bugging me already, and I must admit that I’m getting too preoccupied that I could almost forget to thank Him for all the things that he have given me. So yeah, I’m not spiritually healthy anymore and that is no joke.
I just found out, just now, that I need to make a project proposal for my thesis. And must work on it ASAP.
I should go now, I need sleep. God bless
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When you feel stressed, tired, and your heads’ like gonna burst out, having a good chocolate cake and a glass of wine would be the best relief.
Yeah, my OJT orientation and the whole events before and after it really kills but it was a very fun experience. And btw, I have my OJT already. It’s in Emerson Electonics Asia Ltd. And I must say that it is a very good and interesting company.
I’m not in the mood of blogging right now. My head aches big time. I’ll update again later.
I’m having a hard time finding an OJT. It’s not that I’m selective in where and what company to apply in, it’s just that in all of the companies that I’ve sent my resume in, none of them have a positive call back. And it’s getting unhealthy already since time is passing so fast that sooner or later, I might just see myself cramming everything on the finals week. I don’t want this to happen, and I don’t think that anyone does, right?
I know that I’ve got all the chance and opportunities to work for a company where I could apply my technical knowledge, but in times like this—where firing rate of employees is getting high—competition is tougher that what it seems to be, especially when you’re the one who’s doing the responsibility. It’s stressing doing my academics and perpetually sending my resumes to companies. And the pressure is something that I can’t handle. But yeah, I know that everything happens for a reason but I hope that everything would turn out fine and worth it.
If I were to choose what job do I love to do, I’d choose to go with my passion. If you personally know me, then you know what that job is. Well I don’t want to be just a Photographer. I’d love to work in an advertising agency where creativity overflows and that overflowing creativity is not enough. Where great concept for the normal people is a lame thought for people who has a creative eye. You know. I’d love to be pressured with that sense, but no. Reality is, I’m engaged with being an Industrial Engineering student and that soon enough, I’m going to be an Industrial Engineer who’ll do Industrial Engineering jobs and Industrial Engineering pressures. It’s not that I’m regretting the things that I’m doing, but I believe that this technical knowledge that I have is something that will help me fulfill my dreams. I know that photographing people is not enough to make money. And in fact, I don’t want this gift to be abused. Do you get what I mean?
Anyhow, I think that what is happening to me right now is the dilemma of a student who can’t practically find an OJT that instant. And the only thing that I regret is that if I had been wise and responsible, none of these would have happen. So yeah, the pressure is still on but the hope is still and forever will be alive! Jai ho! LOL.
Happy Birthday to my sister. I don’t know if she’d read this but I hope she knows that I’m luck to have a sister like her.
My mom and I are okay now. I just clearly learned that when people are already hot-headed, do not, ever, argue and just go with the flow. Because at the end of the day, you’ll lose.
Have a great day and ask always ask yourself, have you prayed today? (:
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It’s Tuesday morning and I woke up with my mom uttering the words of her life miseries. Great way to start the day, eh?
Every single day of my life spent in our house is a complete disaster. It’s like every negative vibes of the world is living in our house and that my mom is responsible in disseminating it to each and every living thing existing in this crazy house.
I don’t know where to get positivity anymore. My day has been fucked up already. I wish I could leave this place and go to a place where people doesn’t complicate things. But there’s no escaping now. I have to deal with this 24/7 of my life. *sighs
And to those who’ve got a very cool and perky family, you are an lucky ass! I envy you. I hate this part of my life. Fcuk!
I have not been able to update this blog for quite some time now since I’ve been quite busy these past few days. I’ve spent most of time looking for an OJT which is something that until now is not successful. Another thing is that I’m getting hooked to this new series that I’m watching entitled Trust Me. I recommend that series if you’ve a lot of issues involving your work environment, and if you’re so interested with how people in the advertising do their job. I must say that I didn’t bore myself that much then because of these activities.
Classes officially started yesterday but I wasn’t able to attend my one and only subject (Applied Engineering) because I wasn’t enrolled then. Good thing that they didn’t have class, too, so skipping that subject isn’t a mortal sin anymore. Mind you that I only have two subjects enrolled for this term— Applied Engineering, and Practicum 1. If you’re an IE student in our school, Applied Engineering would be perhaps the hardest subject that any IE student would take. It’s like an board exam for us IE since our course don’t have any board exams. The curriculum includes everything from General Engineering to Industrial Engineering majors. So just so you know that I really have to work hard for this subject for the coming days, and that the course is offered on a regular (which means that I will take the subject with the regular students from batch 2005, and which means that my classmates are above average and included in the DL in their batch).
There’s actually a lot of things that going on my mind right now. Things that doesn’t really bother my existence but I feel that it worth blogging for. LOL.
First is that I’ve been struggling to find a good company for my OJT. I’ve passed my resume only and through email but only 3 companies responded: Character distributor, Real Estate Corp, and Cement distributor. I’ve taken exams in all of these but none of them responded yet so I think that I would be practical if I continue my search and start walking-in in companies. And mind you that I should be starting by now so that I could pursue my company study/thesis. I’ll contact some companies that made progress in my application in Jobstreet. I bet that it won’t make any harm if I’ll ask how thing are going on with my application. I’m having high hopes for this.
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Two weeks ago, I went in Anawangin, Zambales. If you don’t know what/where Anawangin/Zambales is then you might want to google it and see it for yourself. I was with my friend, Leigh, and we’re with her boyfriend’s siblings. It was a very fun summer escape. The place is really nice—imagine Puerto Galera that is tamed, no establishments. Just you, nature, pine trees, beach, and summer sun. Super fun. I would want to go back here but this season isn’t the right time. Aside from lack of financial credits, I still have to compromise with my school activities. Anyway, we stayed there for 3 days but that long isn’t too long if you really want to enjoy summer. But then, good things really come to an end, and photos are the best way to freeze every moment and reminisce through them. LOL. And it was nice meeting Russell’s siblings
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Last Saturday, my group (Fuze Productions) had a photoshoot that is needed for our profile/portfolio. I must say that Rouge Studio in Makati is the place to be. It was my first time to be the one in front of the camera and I must say that it’s addicting. I invited 3 other photographers to do it because I won’t be able to do it myself. LOL. Photos will be uploaded in our group’s Multiply and Facebook. I haven’t edited anything yet since I’m busy doing school requirements. Hehe. I can’t post any photo here right now, I’m too tired to edit. LOL.
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I don’t have a cellphone anymore because of some confidential reason. In that case, I must start saving money to buy a new phone before my birthday. And oh, I’m turning 21 in some time now. That just proves that I’m not getting any younger and that changes in my life is really needed. I’m not excited with that thought, though. It’s a Monday, so might celebrate it in my OJT and that I still have to attend my class after my OJT. How frustrating. LOL. Anyhow, that’s just age and occasion. I should invest more for my future.
ZOMG! I’m getting tired already. I haven’t eaten dinner but I’m getting kind of sleepy. I’ll continue blabbing later
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Staying at home for the rest of your life will definitely make you the worst person ever.
I feel like I’m getting sick or whatever, and that some things are haunting me when actually there’s none.
Watching DVDs, surfing over the internet, perpetually exploring Adobe Photoshop, dealing with my mom, watching Wowwowee during lunch time, sleeping at random hours, late-night sleep, waking up late, and making myself insane. These are just some of the grueling activities that I do during this summer break at home. These are also the reasons why I need to go out of our humble abode and explore the outside world. The only reason why I can’t do this is that I don’t have enough money to do outdoor activities. Now I know why my mom always feel like she’s sick, lonely, depressed and so negative of life. And if there’s one thing that I only enjoy staying at home is that foods are always available and that you can always fuck your mind whenever random thoughts are haunting you. I hate this. I want my summer to start.
This is no good, I’ve to change my lifestyle.
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So hello bitches (or readers, if theres any), I’m still alive, just feeling kind of lazy to update any of my online accounts, but I’ve got the time now so if you’ve time to spare to read the ramblings that will come after these blahs then that’s be lovely. Hmmmm…
It’s summer already and school’s done, which technically means that I am totally free from doing stressful paper works (assuming that I really do such, but something that I really did this recent term), and that I can do whatever it is that I want to my life. But then, I just can’t do so because my financial status won’t let me and that I have to manage my OJT. Yes, you’ve read it right, I’m having my OJT soon which means that I passed all of my subjects which includes SPM. Oh yeah, just the right time that I needed to pass, because if I didn’t then that’d be the only course that I’d be getting for the next term including a laboratory subject and an elective. But anyhow, since I passed everything, I am obliged to find and apply a good company where I could have my OJT. But I’d love to work in an Advertising company. But there’s a lot more interesting companies in some online job search websites. I think that I just have to stick on whatever comes/calls first and which would give me a very good opportunity, and of course, benefits. LOL.
This long school break makes me more lazy since I’m used to have a week-long break from school, but as I lay on my bed and perpetually watch Queer As Folk (I’m on season 2, btw), I realized that my laying down and pigging out will make me sick and it’s kinda tiring already—my back aches, and I’m feeling that I could suffer from having a high-blood pressure because I think I’ve felt a symptom already—and that alone made me think that I needed to change some of my activities and make my life better. LOL. And because people in QAF has a toned body, I thought that I need to enroll myself to a gym, but since I don’t have moolahs to do that, then why not do it in our humble abode, right? So what I did is that I take nicotine for the last time for this day and set myself in the mood of doing some fun exercise routine. Since we don’t have any gym stuff in our house except for the shaper and jumping ropes, and that I first need to trim down my getting-bigger-tummy, and after 15 minutes of stretching, I subjected my self to very exhausting and tiring routine—jump roped for 200 times. Okay, 200 is not a good number, but for someone who is re-starting this kind of activity, that is somewhat an accomplishment. Well, I didn’t just jump, I also jogged for like 3 mins, then rest then jog again. But anyways, I took me 20 minutes to do everything. Oh I love the sweating and the hurting on my body… makes me feel that I really did something different to my body. LOL.
I don’t know if I’ll continue my Death Project anymore. That is because I lack resources and manpower to technically complete the whole production staff. But then, I’m planing to change my photography style since I don’t want be one of the commoners. Well, you know. And that I think that the style that I am working on is something that I can’t pursue anymore because it’s common nga! LOL. I want to be on the art side, something like… fine art photography. Oha! That’d be more on cinematic approach. I don’t know how to do that yet but I think that in one way or another, I’ve done something like that. So hmmm… I’ll see about that.
My friends and I got lots of plans that has to be done during this summer-long-break, but none of those have been done yet. This week, we’re supposed to got to Bataan but until now I’m not hearing any update from Nel. Another thing is that the photo shoots that I promised to some of the models is something that I can’t push through because, again, I need manpower. I just can’t do make up, hair styles and whatever. Anyhow, if none of the plans goes on, then I might seriously do something that would enrich my personality and lifestyle. I gonna be vain. After all, loving thyself won’t make much of a sin, right? But for now, I must look forward of my going to Vigan with Leigh and friends. Hmmmm..
I’ve watched Madagascar 1 and 2 in just one sitting and I can’t wait to see Madagascar 3 on the big screen. And yes, I’m being hooked up again in watching series. I’m watching Queer As Folks and after that, I’m planning to watch the whole season of Sex And The City. Yeah, and I still have lots of movies to watch watch. Oh well, thinking of these things makes me more excited and fat. LOL.
I should go now, I’ve blabbed too much and I should save some for my next entry. Later
